This is the word for which I feel no emotion, am totally blank. Its like music to the deaf, colors to the blind and speech to the dumb.
Honestly, I don't know what it is to have a Father. I have never considered anyone as a Fatherly figure. I don't regret it. I am not upset about it. I never did, nor will complain about not having experienced a Father's Love.
There were instances when one of my best friends father was trying to tell me that I can treat him just like my father. But I never reciprocated.
I was 19, my professor was forcing himself on me, verbally. He kept saying "You are a clever girl, but very stubborn. You need to concentrate more on subjects ...etc.. I understand there is nobody to guide you so from today on I will be your God Father. Without asking me any questions you will agree to what I tell you ....." .
He lectured me for 35 minutes, I was just looking at him, nodding my head, pretending to listen, that is exactly what all students did in his class. But when I heard him say " You poor girl...."
That was the last word I could hear, suppressing my tears I said loudly "Sir, I have my mother and other family members who guide me, Thank you very much but I don't need a Father now. I also think you should not discuss this in Laboratory hours".
I think its always easy to not feel the void of something you have never experienced than for the known to be taken away from you.
Happy Fathers Day to all my dear friends :)